Today’s blog posting could probably be sub-titled “Embracing Who I Am, Part 2”
I’ve been procrastinating on some work for one of my clients. The truth is that I’m doing a favor for another colleague, and it’s killing me. I don’t feel like this “assignment” is easy for me. I hate dealing with spreadsheets, budget numbers, and number crunching. However, it seems that no one else can do it for her, so I’m doing my best to help.
My problem is that I might not be doing my best. Let me rephrase that: my best may not be good enough for what she needs, and that’s really difficult for me to accept.
One thing I’m realizing about myself is that if I can’t do something extremely well, I don’t do it. I’m not sure if it’s perfectionism or just a lot of self-judgement.
Tonight I don’t have an easy answer. I just know that I have to do my best for now.
I also have to remind myself that I AM my worst critic. Instead of creating terrible scenarios in my head in which my colleague hates what I’ve done or complains about what I haven’t done, I need to focus on doing what needs to be done.
After all, it isn’t brain surgery.